I’ve always been an independent type of girl.. I don’t like relying on someone because I don’t want to bother or cause any inconvenience. Now I’m 18 and I’ve never imagined that crossing the line to
“adulthood” would change my perspective and my thoughts. I’ve changed and still am changing, if before I was a completely happy-go-lucky person that would do things impulsively without thinking of the consequences, I can say that slowly, I’m getting to the stage where it’s not about what I want now anymore but what I also want for my f u t u r e. I’ve failed through out the years in accomplishing all my goals, but I’ve never been as determined as I am now to be successful at school in my studies and eventually in my soon to be career. I am learning so much to be as self-sufficient as possible and not continually rely on my parents especially in terms of financial support. This is because I want to be able to manage by myself money, appointments and all. Of course this doesn’t mean I am withdrawing into myself and letting my parents out in everything I do, their support is precious, as well as their advice and their guidance but I have to stand on my feet and learn how to run my life on my own because one day that’s what exactly is going to happen and I want to be prepared and equipped for it. The year’s going to an end and I realize time really flies so fast, I’m just going to make the best out of it and wait for 2014, it’s absolutely going to be my year.
I have never admired a guy as much as I admire my boyfriend. He is such a wonderful person and it goes beyond our relationship, he is wonderful not just to me but to everyone he connects with and I think people would agree with me if only they got the chance to know him better. First off, he is not a flashy person, he doesn’t show off and have an attitude that may suggest him to be a person who brags about himself, he is more of a reserved guy who loves tranquility, intimate places. He’s insecure at times but it is what makes him a grounded and a humble guy. Principles and values, he stands for what he thinks but never oppress others, he accepts suggestions and is open to discussion. A strong-willed man, very competitive and it’s what makes him hard-working and disciplined, one who knows his priorities and responsibilities. He has a great family behind him, beautiful parents who raised him into the respectful and righteous guy who he is now. He’s brilliant, logical, a very smart guy, very appealing, the most handsome to me, tall and a nice figure. But his heart, his heart is even more than what he is, his heart is what most defines him. I’ve known him for almost three years and only when we got together I realized all the spots I had been neglecting. He is true, careless of other’s judgement, he is genuine and honest to himself and to others. His friends love him for that. A great listener available at all times, the sweetest guy when it comes to comfort, he hugs like nobody, he shares the pain. Respectful, I’ve never known a man who could respect a woman and her parents like he does so far. He respects my decisions, my stand, my body, my own intellect. He respects what my parents want without obliging me to do something that may go against their will. Generous hands, he’s always giving, not merely material things but love, he gives love and care, he is thoughtful, he is a man who swallows his pride just to make up with me when we fight.
There are so many things left to say but everyday I keep knowing him and discovering the beauty of his personality. I’ve found a treasure when I found him. If guys were just close to how he is I think girls would never have to complain and cry, they would be treated the way they truly deserve.
I have the best boyfriend, sorry.
Dire che sono la ragazza più fortunata del mondo é forse dire poco. Avere il suo sostegno e il suo amore mi rende forte. Posso affrontare e superare tutto.
It’s gonna be a day of full outburst of my feelings. All the thoughts and every torn I’ve kept for so long will be released and you will know. You will know everything that I’ve been through
just to keep and love you. You will know why I gave up on us. I hope forgiveness and understanding will take place and it will be the full stop and the END of everything between us.
É bello avere qualcuno con cui puoi essere completamente te stessa, con cui fare le espressioni più imbarazzanti e sentirti bella e speciale lo stesso. Quel qualcuno che non hai bisogno di impressionare tutto il tempo perché anche con il pigiama ti reputa splendida comunque e che ti dice “devi essere naturale..”; é lí che sai che lui apprezza la tua semplicità ed ama solo ed esclusivamente te stessa, non il tuo trucco, non i tuoi vestiti, né le altre cianfrusaglie che porti. Tutto il resto é solo un accessorio in più, lui ti ama spoglia. É bello specialmente perché le emozioni che ti fa provare, la felicità che ti da, sono cose che in qualche modo lui può sentire perché tu lo ami allo stesso modo. É bello ricevere ma è anche più bello donare. Per lui farei di tutto per poterlo rendere felice come lui fa con me. Forse è questo il regalo più grande.. amare ed essere amati per ciò che si é.
Today in Sociology class we tackled about a very serious theme which is suicide. Everytime that word pops in my mind or pass through my ears, I shiver. It’s such a strong word with so much power in it: the power to end one’s life with his own hands.
I don’t know if every adolescent have come to a point in their lives where they thought of committing it; as one of them, that point came to me once and fortunately “just” once. The thought of putting into an end every suffering and every miscomprehension, any kind of loneliness and bitterness. A full stop to everything. But for someone else, o n c e could be enough.. that instant of just entertaining the thought of it could be fatal.
Factors that make suicide possible are many but most of all, it is the society. I am now more aware of how society has a very BIG impact on an individual’s life. The feeling of not being enough, racism, people’s judgmental attitude, loneliness, violences, business, materialism.. listing all of them could take months, they all leave a mark in people’s life. However, what is even more frightening is how a lot of women and men think that
suicide is an act of courage. It really is the saddest part because they are completely wrong.
One thing I’ve learnt throughout my life-changing experiences is that l i v i n g, the act of keeping life is the most courageous attitude a person can have. On the contrary d y i n g and finding an escape is cowardness. The pursuit of happiness is way more difficult than just quitting on it, because quitting is easy, you decide it and it’s for the most part done but enduring, oh that’s the hardest. You can’t just simply say it and expect happiness, good to come to you but you have to act it; take courage, stand up on your ground and chase it.
You who are reading this, I salute you because you’re holding on, your strength is amazing and it makes you wonderful. Just keep on living because life is still beautiful no matter all the things you’ve gone through, I assure you.
You are not alone, you are loved.
- Me: Non dubito di te perché penso che mi tradisci o che non mi ami.. A volte ho queste insecurezze perche penso che un giorno ti stancherai e sceglierai qualcuno che per esempio potresti incontrare tutti i giorni.. solo questo..
- Him: Sarebbe molto meglio se ci potessimo vedere tutti i giorni, ma ti ho chiesto io di stare insieme nonostante la distanza e sapevo a cosa saremmo andati incontro e sapevo anche che non mi sarei mai stufato di te perché ti amo ❤
⇒ M O N T H L Y F A V O R I T E S ⇐
1.) • Watch: Fossil | gift from mom
• Infinity bracelet: 2Jewels | gift from nico
• Puzzle bracelet: Valentini | gift from jane
2.) • Facial cleansing products: Garnier
3.) • Heart earrings: Swarovski | gift from lucy
4.) • White nail polish: Locia
It breaks my heart seeing all the pictures of what the typhoon caused, thousands of people affected and some are still missing, children crying and women and men screaming for desperation.. This is one of those times where I feel
useless for not being able to help physically and lend my support.
Hearing nations donating millions of pesos really melts my heart and makes me think how Philippines has the favor of men and how loved it is. On the other hand, I truly hope that these funds will be used for the uprising and not for personal benefits of the politicians, there’s no place for corruption when it comes to such as a momentous calamity.
I salute all the filipinos for bearing such a great burden in their hearts, for the strength and for their determination to keep going on no matter the pain, the fear and all they’ve gone through. My heart cries for the victims, for the families that lost their loved ones and for the children who have no home. I know everything happens for a reason and dreams may be crashed, the future may not seem to be bright but there is always HOPE.
Hope is the last thing to die.